I want to pick up a pen and paper, no not pen; a pencil. So, I want to pick up a pencil and write what I want my life to be some years hence, and achieve it by hook or crook.
And I want to pick up an eraser and erase every moment I shared with people who left with unsaid words. They never deserved so much of me. I am angry and extremely extremely ... void.
Human beings just use each other.
Emotionally. Physically. And when their work is done, they move ahead.
And I forgive them. Because I call them victims of circumstances; But my forgiveness ain't gonna be so easy now on.
Yes, you said it right my dear prospective Chief Minister , " People who have ambitions do not get effected by emotions"
No, I will not give up on compassion. No, I am not begging for stability in life.
I'm very very angry with myself and them.
I'm scared. Of life. Of people.
I'm scarred.
I'm a hopeless dreamer.
I'm void.
I'm not feeling right.
I'm just a little ashamed to be all of this. This is not what I want to feel.
I'm miss you Shivani. Badly. Please come back wherever you are. Please.
Too much usage of 'I' because its MY life. And I am the most important person in my life.
7 comments:
yup yup. that is the mantra... 'i am the most important person in my life' yippie!
At times, we dont really have an option but to accept the fact that a loved one is no more there with us in our thick and thin.. But for those who make things happen, acceptance comes after a lot of effort goes into bringing the change that they wish to see. This isnt a personal attck on you. But if you haven't yet tried to open all possible doors, then go ahead,there is a messiah behind each one. He will guide you.
all the best!
I'm tryin to understand what you're trying to say but who is the chief minister???
@ Rakesh - Prospective. Wait a decade and a half, You'll know. :)
You deleted the last entry. It was so much fun reading it. I specially came back to read it again.
Why don't you gimme your email ID? I shall mail it to you along with some more. And then we can get rid of this hide and seek as well. :)
Things happen! Life goes on:).
All the best with ur search....:)
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