I’m tired of receiving messages from boys that begin –
I’ve been unfair to you . . .
or other vain attempts at apology
and of the ways in which I allow that to be good enough for me
every fucking time.
because I already know that I’ll respond to say –
all emotional responses are valid
I value you and your feelings.
Even after mine have been disregarded, mangled, and/or misconstrued.
because I am tired of being tired.
I’m tired of all of these
responses to my images.
of being the wrong [anything] at [any time]
of laundry lists of my inefficacy
and this is the end.
I’m sick of living a life
in deference to
in consequence of